My Epiphany

WHERE CHRISTMAS ENDS, IS WHERE CHRISTMAS TRULY BEGINS

I’ve had an epiphany.

And it’s just this:

Where Christmas ends, is where Christmas truly begins.

It’s been 12 long nights since that tree swam in it’s sea of gifts gently tied and presents placed with careful hands.

12 long nights since meals were eaten in a house overfull with food and people and noise and weren’t we all over-tired and over-fed and with eyes overflowing with love and laughter ringing true and tall round tables heavy-laden?

And as we stuffed down this table of love, ate long and laughed loud, crossed hands and snapped crackers and marvelled at his wondrous gift of grace, given to us again and again and again; I wondered what it all means come January when the presents and the Christmas placemats are all tucked back away. When baubles don’t hang on trees, and windows no longer sparkle with Christmas lights.

How do you hang on to Christmas, even as you’re packing it away?

How do you keep on marvelling, when the mayhem threatens to swallow you all over, and bags need packing and shoes polishing, and kids in cars need ferrying to clubs.

That advent spirit, once still and true – how do we keep it from becoming jaded? Bruised and battered by January’s business and busyness and back-to-work overwork?

Because it doesn’t just end there. Christmas was never meant to end there.

This is really just the beginning.

“When the song of the angels is stilled,
when the star in the sky is gone,
when the kings and princes are home,
when the shepherds are back with their flocks,
the work of Christmas begins:
to find the lost,
to heal the broken,
to feed the hungry,
to release the prisoner,
to rebuild the nations,
to bring peace among the people,
to make music in the heart.”

– Howard Thurman

epiphany
ɪˈpɪf(ə)ni,ɛ-
a moment of sudden and great revelation or realization.
epiphany
ɪˈpɪf(ə)ni,ɛ-
the manifestation of Christ to the Gentiles as represented by the Magi (Matthew 2:11)

 

So the real work of Christmas comes not in the sending of cards to loved ones not seen since we sent them a card this time last year? Not in the racking up of credit card bills and the appeasing of guilt and the buying of gifts and how do we tell them that we want their time, their love, not their presents?  It’s never the gifts that we really need anyway, it’s the love. Always love.

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Oh this is hard.

Hard love that comes not once a year in tiny boxes and shiny wrapping paper, hard love that comes not in token gestures and yes this is better than nothing but is this the best we can really do?

The real work of Christmas comes when the beginning has truly begun. When the tree is packed away and real life returns. It comes when children are sick and cars break down and lives get busy. It comes when we are asked to give more than we think we can, more than we want to, and can I really do this? Am I really enough this time?

I can tuck tenners into envelopes and send presents through the post and I can feel like I am doing alright, doing my bit. I can get online and order presents from amazon, but what if really I needed to get offline more? To shut down laptops and shut down my own voice, shouting loud and hard about jobs not done and things not written and have I really got time for this?

But what if Christmas looked less like a once-a-year one-shot at loving those around me and more like an everyday giving of all that I am?

Could I do that?

Could I be that gift?

Can I pour myself out as this epiphany sinks in, let myself not let Christmas be put away until next year, but make every day, this year, count like Christmas?

Not in the presents or the glitz or the party, but in the everyday remembering that Christmas was not an end, but a beginning. A starting over of a new way, a new promise, a new love. A giving of one human being to start and show that a love revolution could bust us all wide open and make us whole again, all at the same time and without drawing a breath.

That the miracle of one life was enough to give us all new life. A new start. Enough to share and go around. Jesus birth was meant to show us that all we needed to bring was us. Yes, those wise men brought gifts, but those shepherds came on empty, bended knee, just to be. And it was all taken as grace. All accepted, all cherished.

All I need to bring is me.

Do I always believe it is enough?

Enough to stop and pause in the day and send a text. Kind words and a soft heart and is that enough? Enough to draw breath and take time to cook a meal, or write a card, or extend a hand?

Shouldn’t there be more, flashier ways, of declaring it all holy? Will what I offer make the grade?

Can it really make a difference?

Epiphany. It comes from the greek word “manifestation”.  An event, action, or object that clearly shows or embodies something abstract or theoretical.The action or fact of showing something.

We can all be a manifestation of love.

We can all speak good news, and not turn our eyes from the bad. We can all play our parts – however small – in praying for, and paying for and campaigning for freedom for prisoners and release for the oppressed and sight for the blind.

We can all show grace, in a million little ways, to those around us everyday. Take the time to stop and see and drink tea with those who need it. To care and engage and be present. We can all embody the true meaning of Christmas come, and Christmas here to stay, and Immanuel – God with us. It doesn’t have to be huge, but it has to be something. If epiphany means manifestation, and a manifestation is the ‘action or fact of showing something’ then it has to be something. Because the lost, and the broken, and the hungry – they all need something. We all need something; whether it’s today or yesterday, or next week or next year. We’ve all lifted weary heads and breathed in deep the gift of another’s thought or care or love.

So shouldn’t it be our job, our purpose, our highest calling perhaps, to carry on doing what He came to start?

Let’s be the difference. Be the gift. Be the hope. Be Christmas all year round.

That’s my Epiphany. Le’s start something.

 


I’m putting this epiphany into action by coming up with one thing I want to do every day (or most days!), every week and every month during 2017. Reading Ann Voskamp’s The Broken Way has inspired me more than I thought possible, and the beautiful quote above, shared on twitter by St Paul’s Cathedral yesterday, has put some more meat on those first stirrings of my soul. More on this in future posts, but if you’ve got your own ideas on how to keep on with the work of Christmas now that Christmas is over, I’d love for you to share your thoughts and ideas – let’s start something!


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In search of awe and wonder

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Image: Valeria Aksakova / Freepik

Sometimes I wonder if we’re all just big old magpies, dressed up in human form.

Flitting around from branch to branch, scouring the earth for the next big shiny thing. Lining our nests with all that glitters – even when it’s not really precious at all but an old piece of tin foil, or a plastic ring from a Christmas cracker, glinting as if it might be something special, foxing us with it’s own reflection.

Sometimes I wonder how we ended up chasing all that fools gold, seeking solace in tinsel and trees covered in lights, presents piled up underneath. Finding fleeting happiness as paper is fast-unwrapped, packaging piling around us; life –with all it’s cares and burdens – for just a moment, forgotten.

Sometimes, when you are surrounded by so much, it’s hard to keep finding the awe and wonder in the everyday. Hard to find anything at all that stirs your world-weary soul anymore to soar, and hope and dream.

Dream of a Christmas where half the world is not cowering beneath a bombed-out sky, looking up and waiting not for Santa and his sleigh to steal overhead, but for aircraft, heavy laded with all the wrong sorts of Christmas gifts.

Dream of a time where people do not live in fear, in hunger, without shelter, free to talk and share and speak of their faith without risking their lives.

In my comfortable, western life, I cannot imagine such suffering and persecution, and yet I know it goes on. Occasionally I see it on the news, more often I hear of it through books that I read, or through stories of people that I know living and working in places where even saying you are a Christian can result in your death. Does that really even exist anymore? Oh yes.

Would I have the courage to stand under that? To stand and stand and keep standing. Never wavering, never fearing, just holding fast to the hope that is in me, the Light of the World?

I read a story recently about two young women, imprisoned in Tehran, Iran, for converting to Christianity and daring to speak to other people about Jesus. Their courage and bravery was inspirational,but what was really startling for me, in this season of tinsel and glitter and all that sparkles, was the awe and the wonder that rose up in the women that they met, every single time the name of Jesus was spoken.

Women in prison, living in filth, tortured and beaten; for trying to escape a violent marriage, for being the wrong ethnic group, for getting caught in the wrong place with the wrong head covering, for being an inconvenience, for daring to have an opinion or trying to do a job. Women who live in a society where they are property, not people, who live at the mercy of another ruling over them, with no rights, no advocate, no hope.

Except this Jesus, who came down from heaven – God with us, Immanuel – to be our hope. God in human form, who does not require or demand anything from us apart from our love, and who offers us mercy, hope, compassion. Can we ever understand the newness of hope that springs up in the soul of a person who has never before met this Jesus? Whose only experience of religion is a forced one, covered in fear and obligation, hopelessness and never-changingness?

The books of the Bible that speak of the early church, letters written to baby Christians in places like Ephesus and Corinth, also tell tales of awe and wonder as it spreads through a  society that has never before seen such love, such hope. Instructions on dealing with widows, with orphans, slaves and women – there because the early churches were crammed full of them. Oppressed people with no rights, living under a Greco-Roman household code that placed men at the top, and all else underneath, where their testimony was not even valid in a court of law, running to the one that offered them equality, a place to belong, a home. Running to Jesus, who loved women so much that he first appeared after his resurrection to Mary, the prostitute-turned-pupil, and told her to go tell the men (John 20:11-18). Who built a church that lived by the once-revolutionary-now-more-ordinary premise that “There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” (Galatians 3:28). Churches where women could prophesy, tell of God’s goodness, where they are mentioned as leaders, as fellow-workers, as equals. In a society that did not afford them anything like that status. No wonder they loved Him.

We cheer now that this motto, once oh-so revolutionary, is taken for granted as a basic human right – for us here at least, if not for everyone, everywhere. But as we cheer, I will try this Christmas, as I baste my turkey and celebrate with my beautiful family, in our comfortable, privileged life, to conjure up once more some of that awe and wonder. To remember what exactly happened that night 2000 years ago, when God left heaven and collided with out world, ushering in – if we let Him – a new world order.

When He offered us something more than fear, something greater than chasing after the next shiny thing. When He gave Himself that we might live with Him forever. I will try and remember the newness of that, when those women and children and slaves in Greece and Rome and Israel heard it for the first time. When women today, living in societies that oppress and violate them, hear it for the first time:

“For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only Son, that whosoever believes in Him may not perish, but have eternal life.” (John 3:16)

Maybe here, we hear it so often that it becomes like white noise. The choice – because we have so many! – becomes unimportant. Our privilege, our opportunity, our options blind us to the awe and wonder found in the Christmas story. But my heart cry is simple. It is this: not this year, not here, not in this heart.

Don’t let me be blind to what He gave. Don’t let me be deaf to what He offered. And don’t let me be so dazzled by all that is around me, to my comfort and privilege and afforded rights, that I forget how truly blessed I am to live where I do, in the time I do, and that I don’t have to suffer what some people suffer every day because of their gender, their ethnicity or their religion.

To oppressed people everywhere: you are in my heart this Christmas. I don’t take this freedom for granted.


There are many great organisations working in war-torn parts of the world such as Syria, or supporting church communities in countries where they are oppressed. Below are a couple that you could donate to, but there are many more out there on the internet!

 

 

It’s all in the detail

When I read the Christmas story, there are so many things that surprise me. Things that don’t often make the cut in the pre-school nativity, the cosy candlelit scenes in pretty churches of hay-filled mangers and babies that don’t cry and children with tea-towels tied jauntily around their heads.

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Like the fact that Mary was likely 14 or 15 years old when she gave birth to a son. Now I have an 11 year old myself, that sounds even more shocking to me than ever before.

Like the fact that they ended up in a stable – or actually, most likely a cave of some sort – probably because they had been shunned by all of Joseph’s family that lived in Bethlehem, confused by the fact that he’d chosen to marry a girl who was already pregnant with a child he didn’t father.

Like the minutiae of the whole crazy story, planned and executed perfectly and intricately to fulfill a story that was thousands of years in the making.

A baby born in Bethlehem, not because that’s where his parents lived, but because right then, at that particular point in time, a Roman government chose to take a census. Two young parents forced to up sticks and travel 90-odd miles, 9 months pregnant and on a donkey, when it would have been the last thing on their minds. All so that the words of a prophet, Micah, would be true:

“But you, Bethlehem Ephrathah,
    though you are small among the clans of Judah,
out of you will come for me
    one who will be ruler over Israel” Micah 5:2

Born of a woman, and an unmarried, uninitiated one at that, to make true the words of Isaiah, another prophet, spoken over 700 years before his birth:

“Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign: The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel.” Isaiah 7:14

Born into a one particular family, out of all those on the face of the earth, tracing back through the lines of the great and the good of Biblical patriarchy – David, Jesse, Jacob, Isaac, Abraham – so that another 8 predictions, stretching all the way back to the first books of the Bible, were fulfilled.

The devil is in the detail, so the saying goes, but here and now, it’s the savior that’s in the specifics.

Specific details that narrow down this gift of love.

Specific circumstances that rearranged and realigned themselves to let us know that God was here. Immanuel. God with us.

Specific promises, spoken through holy men and recorded in holy books hundreds of years before they came to pass. So that we would know. That despite the waiting – which must have seemed endless and endless and endless to the Israelite people waiting for their coming king; despite the silence – over 400 years between Old  and New Testament writings, where God seemingly said nothing to his people that anyone saw fit to record. Despite it all, when it finally happened, when the Son of God was born on earth, it was PERFECT.

An intricately-woven story of a faithful God who is always interested in the detail and who always answers us intimately. A faithful God who is still the same, yesterday, today and tomorrow, regardless of the silence, the waiting, the uncertainty.

I’m reminded of it each advent, as I re-read the story of a saviour born in such specific circumstances so that we might know He is Truth, and I was reminded of it this week when I listened to this beautiful song from Chris Tomlin. A faithful God whose promises are still – as they always were – Yes and Amen.

 


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The gift – an advent reflection on peace

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It’s that time of year again. The tinsel, the tree, the baking, the carol concerts and school plays. I love it all. But I also love trying to carve out the quiet spaces, hunt down the precious advent moments that somehow feel all the more sacred for the challenge of finding them amidst the chaos of the Christmas season.

This week I am guesting over at Threads as we explore the themes of Peace, Joy and Hope in the run up to Christmas. Find yourself a quiet moment and head on over there to read an advent reflection on the greatest gift we’ll get this year…


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